I scoured the Earth,
Looking for a love
That would love me the way I had always wanted to be loved.
Looking for someone
Who would be brave enough
To look into the darkness of my eyes
And be the moon to light it up.
Looking for someone who would see my cracked heart
As cracked.
Not shattered, the way everyone else saw it.
Looking for someone
Who would bear my conspiracy theories
And the random bursts of philosophy that grab me
At 2 a.m.
I boarded spaceships,
And whizzed past galaxies
Of pink and purple,
Getting sucked into blackholes
in my desperation
To be loved, for once,
The way I had always wanted to be loved.
But in that blackhole,
Time froze and I,
Was caught in a parabola of black and white
And things I had not yet read about.
It was an epiphany.
I realised that I already had the someone I was looking for.
It took a supernatural amount of rubble,
Pain, suffering, wandering,
Exploration,
For me to finally realize that the love I was looking for
Was already in myself.
I was the person who stayed up with myself
When life pushed me down into really dark trenches.
I willed myself to move forward,
Take one step after another, even when I couldn’t see
The light at the end of the tunnel.
I healed my scars,
Grew flowers in the cracks of my heart
So that if light ever entered,
It knew where to start from.
I was in my own embrace before I was in anyone else’s.
I was my first love.
I was the someone I was looking for.
February 7, 2021 at 11:05 pm
Absolutely fantastic, Trisha. Really like how you handle complex topics so nicely. How about experimenting with longer form of story telling, especially for topics as sensitive as these? This will allow you to breakdown and these ideas in greater detail.
February 5, 2021 at 4:02 pm
If everyone would see their lives this way… think how different the world would be.
Marvellous!!!
👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
January 31, 2021 at 5:21 am
A nice perspective
January 29, 2021 at 4:36 pm
Yes I very much agree, every experience is within oneself. Every emotion be it love, hate, anger etc is flowing from within. In true sense, we are the manufacturing unit of all these emotions. In larger scape of things we are the creator. The day we realize that we are not only a creation but the creator, that will bring an end to all our miseries. Appreciate and proud your thoughts, young lady and 😍
January 29, 2021 at 2:43 pm
This is hands down your best piece. “The moon is still complete without the night.” And that’s what it is ! You are complete in what you have. The only pursuit in life is not about pursuing someone but to pursue for your own amelioration 😊. I am so proud of you dear girl 🤗🤗
January 29, 2021 at 9:58 am
I was in my own embrace before i was in anyone else’s.This line will stay with me .this is just too good !!! I am beyond words
January 29, 2021 at 9:42 am
Simply brilliant…outstanding…I usually don’t comment on your blogs for I am probably your biggest critic (next to yourself)…keep up the writing spirit…Keep pushing your limits to get better than the best
January 29, 2021 at 9:32 am
Wow Trisha! I don’t have words for this. I had written something with same meaning as this one, but not as spectacular 😄. Can’t agree more and can’t praise enough!